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Offline batts

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Heart Broken
« on: December 16, 2015, 12:44:12 AM »
Hello everyone.  I just need some advice and I just dont know who to turn to...
I was with my boyfriend for a few years.  He was with me during my addiction as well as when I got sober 10/26/14. He is what some call a normie (not an alcoholic or an addict) and has always been extremely supportive of what I was going through and was always right by my side.

Well a few months ago I slipped up and relapsed (just once) and ever since things have gone down hill with us.  He no longer believes that I am serious about being sober and does't think I want to be sober.  THAT IS THE EXACT OPPOSITE OF WHAT I WANT !!! About two weeks ago he broke up with me and left.  We had a life together, our own house, a dog.  No kids but we were planning on it. 

I have tried explaining to him that I made a mistake and I am still very serious about being sober.  One slip up and my entire life fell apart...

I am so hurt and broken and I am having a very hard time letting this go and an even harder time moving on.  Even though I am the one that made the mistake and I take full responsibility for it, I am just having a hard time getting out of the pity party and getting myself down for messing up and loosing him.  The truth is...I am very regretful and feel as if there is no up from here and I don't know what to do anymore.  I can't seem to refocus myself and snap out of this slump I am in...any advice ?