Turning it over!
Whew! this is a biggie for me right now! Had to be driven home yesterday from the meeting I was soooooo sick to my stomach and my dear friend told me that it was stress that was causing this and I had to agree! at that moment i realized that I must put this in Gods hands and whatever will be, will be! Turn it over to God!
I am so grateful to be back to work in the industry that I have worked my entire life, plus! for a Man that knows my entire history and is willing to give me a chance to regain some of my dignity. I always Loved my work and was very good at it but I get sooooooo fearfull, soooooo stressed that I will not measure up! That i will make a mistake, that I will NOT, the list goes on and on! I know in my heart that God put me there for a reason. Since I have been there 3 people have been let go, there are 30 people in the office, and I can't help but wonder if I am next to get the ax. I have also heard myself thinking that If I AM let go I would never be able to hold my head up again and how would I survive that? sigh, It's no wonder I am sick LOL in more ways than one! Anyhow, I woke up this morning and prayed that Gods will, not mine be done. I know I must go to work and do the very best I can and not trip on the out come, it's in Gods capable hands. Today my montra will be, I will turn it over!